My journey has taken to me to extreme highs and extreme lows, The years that I couldn't even leave the house, tore me apart inside, but my remaining fire burned deeply to return to the woods. Even in darkest times the pure love and joy of being in the timber with the sounds of nature, the squirrel chattering away and blue jays announcing an intrusion in it's neighborhood.
As I lay here in bed now, thinking about all that I went through, my greatest victory now that I'm able to actually enjoy much of life again is the ability to go out to my bow stand again. So, I had to turn on this laptop and just write a little bit about my thoughts.
I think we all suffer from some sort of anxiety, whether it be getting nervous about talking in front of a group of people, walking out of stand when it's too dark to see with either wolves or coyotes howling in the distance, or trying to calm yourself as you draw back on the biggest buck you have ever seen, and realizing its you shaking not some phantom ghost wiggling the entire tree.
My continued journey of my struggle with anxiety, panic attacks and agoraphobia. From start to current progress, overcoming obstacles and hopefully helping a few others that suffer from this problem. As I get better along my journey my blogs are turning more to outdoor adventures, life adventures, things I am doing now or want to do that were never in my vocabulary 5 years ago.
Saturday, March 28, 2015
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
Spring back ? Fall Ahead? Where is summer?
You have to be kidding me, so we made the trip to Argyle last weekend, to see family and meet up with friends for a "working" supper. And we get dumped on with a foot of the white powdery stuff?
Someone needs a talk with Mother Nature, must be her time of the month or something this is ridiculous. Only in Wisconsin can you be sunbathing on Saturday and Snowmobiling on Sunday. Gotta love it. Guess I do or I'd move to Alaska where the weather apparently is more on an even level with the time of year you happen to live.
Someone needs a talk with Mother Nature, must be her time of the month or something this is ridiculous. Only in Wisconsin can you be sunbathing on Saturday and Snowmobiling on Sunday. Gotta love it. Guess I do or I'd move to Alaska where the weather apparently is more on an even level with the time of year you happen to live.
Wednesday, March 18, 2015
Long time no see!
I know it's been a long while since I have written a new blog in here. So many people have asked me to keep writing it. So let's do that here quick, get some people caught up in my life I guess. I just haven't felt motivated to write lately, been trying to live life outside of a computer. But it keeps dragging me back into it.!!
Alright here goes nothing! From you loyal followers to someone that doesn't have a clue what I am talking about. Neither do I!! SO we are in the same boat. Which is weird, there is no water where I am sitting. So the boat is somewhat odd placement.
Moving on. Some know some do not. I'm on disability for my anxiety problems that still persist on a daily basis. And let me tell you I don't get much, after paying doctor bills, car insurance for a vehicle I can rarely drive, and daily expenses etc etc, Not much left to go with.
The thing Is the only job I can really do with a certainty is from the computer at home, basically have to still have a "babysitter" when I go out and about. Jeanne is the default choice there, she's a trooper with that, but after 12 years of the ups and downs, I try not to be TOO much of a pain to have my taxi service waiting for me to holler.
Alright here goes nothing! From you loyal followers to someone that doesn't have a clue what I am talking about. Neither do I!! SO we are in the same boat. Which is weird, there is no water where I am sitting. So the boat is somewhat odd placement.
Moving on. Some know some do not. I'm on disability for my anxiety problems that still persist on a daily basis. And let me tell you I don't get much, after paying doctor bills, car insurance for a vehicle I can rarely drive, and daily expenses etc etc, Not much left to go with.
The thing Is the only job I can really do with a certainty is from the computer at home, basically have to still have a "babysitter" when I go out and about. Jeanne is the default choice there, she's a trooper with that, but after 12 years of the ups and downs, I try not to be TOO much of a pain to have my taxi service waiting for me to holler.
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