Working on these campers/trailers and making minimal progress, and not finishing one before really diving into the other probably didn't help. But excitement was there and now it's dwindling a bit. Need a refresher of some sort to get back on track. Every gain right now seems to be off-set by two negatives. Either way i'm not going to lose any money, just time invested even if I sold either or both trailer/campers right now, both are going to be substantial money gains. But just getting to the end of what I'd like to have happen is trying.
So, that's what I'm putting my state of grumpy time to I think. Spending so much time demolishing one, rebuilding another, then thinking of what it will cost me in materials, and then hope I get it back it out once I do, of course i'm worried, add stress, it's hot out, not enough sex .......... errr moving on.
Just tired of feeling crappy for past few days. SO dammit, I bought a bottle of booze to put it right on top of my crappy attitude tonight. And for those who are curious? Don't try this at home!! Now and then I've decided to have a little nip. Not much, just a little. And for the first time in 3.5 days I smiled tonight. Yeah that's not good, and no I won't look to the bottle to solve issues, just felt like having a drink for a change, I should not have one, tomorrow i'll pay for even for drink, and with my meds in my system it won't help things, and heck can't even think real clear as i'm writing this, so i'll have to read this tomorrow and see what kind of things I thought up.
But for those that suffer depression, not a funny matter at all, can be as bad as panic attacks, well worse than those that just have occasional panic, depressions can be clinical and ongoing and can consume your life. Many end up in the bottom of a bottle, I think I've been there as well. Wow what a prize catch I sound like don't I? If it wasn't for my extraordinary looks.......... ok reality sensor wasn't working, it's on now.
SO. As I was saying. One thing that makes me smile..........